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di umur gue yang 21 tahun ini, gue merasa gue belum melakukan apa-apa atau membuat apa-apa yang menjadikan diri gue merasa bangga menjadi seorang Afifah Rossy Wardhani. belum, bukan nggak bakal, tapi itu sih yang gue tau pasti, gue nggak mau jadi gini-gini aja. lalu setelah dipikir-pikir gue juga terlalu banyak menghabiskan waktu gue untuk nongkrong sana-sini, haha hihi doang, nggak produktif banget, diajak kemana-mana hayuk, setelah gue renungi lagi itu nggak banget. lo mau jadi apa? hidup lo kenapa unfaedah banget sih? stop nunda-nunda segala sesuatu, jadi lebih ambisius dikit lah fah! gapapa, it's good to have something to chase for, don't be afraid to lose things or even people. what's meant to be will always stay. semua udah diatur sama Allah, gausah takut sama pikiran lo sendiri gausah takut sama hal-hal yang sebenernya nggak penting-penting banget dan kalau lo liat di lima tahun mendatang lo juga nggak merasa bangga dan mendapatkan apa-apa dari itu?

he, the one who keeps popping everywhere. how can i get rid of you? should i get rid of you? it's like a cycle i can not stop. no matter how relieved i was that it's all gone, i'll always come back to the square one. and i keep hurting myself by making myself become so silly and naive.

it only takes flying back to home, hugging my mother, meeting my old friends, catching up with my father, re-watching my favorite movies, reading good books, eating my mother's cooking to finally I become me again. everything about home heals me. grateful. I'm blessed. you make your own happiness. never count your blessings in things or fortune. I felt like I learned it all the hard way, but after all, I'm grateful. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah now let me have a story-telling time! he he I still have skripsi to do back in Jogja, I really hope it will be done before Ramadhan. but I guess I can only do the best I can and let God decide the rest. and I have this plan to do after done with my skripsi, I wanna make clothes you know! hehe it's always my dream since I was a little kid but never came to reality. I guess it's now or never, right? I've always had this love for clothes and it's nice thinking I can turn my fantasy into re...

hey, let me tell you a little secret, I love seeing him laughs, his voice when he holds his laughter? such a lovely sound. he's an impossibility that keeps me wondering. but for now, I just don't wanna know anything.