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mother, what i am about to write now, you have to know that i am writing this as polite as i can, even my anger feels like it is going to explode but yes i am gonna say it all politely first, you must know that all this time i live with you, it's not all about rainbows and sprinkles sometimes you give me hard time, really hard one well, cause i think, sometimes you are just so self-oriented, and what i mean by that is, you are selfish and aint a mother supposed to be all about her children? well, you aren't you sometimes are the reason i cried in my bedroom. and the sad thing is, you knew, but you didn't seem to care and that's just awful and thanks for always underestimating me, now i feel really bad about my self

so maybe, just maybe, i decided to do clean. wish me the best luck. and not regretting the option i chose.

hi we meet again, whoever reading this. how you got on my blog? haha whatever so, first, remind me later to change my profile picture because it sucks okay, again, whatever. so, let me tell you. i am about to have national exam in couple weeks, worried? yup, a bit. but i am more likely happy to know that high school is almost over. call me weird, but yeah i am glad it is almost over. i dont know how i can survive another year of it. not the best years of my life, except, i kinda enjoy the start of it. well, i actually love it. i was......hm you can say, happy. but you know, whateverrrrrr. im kinda having awkward times you know, like when i consider people my good friends, and they start keeping secrets from me, not that kind of birthday surprise secret ofcourse. haha you kno what i mean. maybe after all, i am the only one who is trying. idk, whatevs, at least i tried. maybe one day i'll see the silver linings of it all. pay me back, God, please? give something g...