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I think I have an issue of emotional stability, seriously sometimes it bothers me a lot. Because it gives me anxiety which I never want to feel and the sudden feeling about becoming so miserable, I hate it. I wanna put sunshine above my head whenever I go so I'll feel happy no matter what. maybe being grateful is truly the key? like what they said?

hidup gue rasanya kyk dinamis bgt, something always changes, kadang gue ngerasa kewalahan, but, I think that's life. I'll just have to get through it, jgn lupa fah untuk selalu bahagia :) fake it till you make it ok, gausah mikirin banget pikiran org terhadap lo, screw them, just be kind always, will you? btw, kangen rumah, kangen mama papa, mau pulang. asap

males males males belajar gamau osce ga ngerti ga paham skripsi jg blm kesentuh laper mulu daritadi mau nonton bioskop aja mau olahraga mau tidur gamau belajar ga ngerti HFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTT---------------------

I've always been thinking that God will give me the best of everything, everything I ask for God will give me the very best of it, I believe in that, I believe in God's will, now, what brought me here? is this the answer? what should I do? did God put me in this to be the fixer? I don't know, but I know what I want, I'm following the stream, following what brings me joy and happiness hoping that I will get there, to the place where I should be, where God really has planned me to be. dear God, I believe you, don't make this path to be the path where I'll lose you, strengthen me, and accompany me.

this is written on Sunday afternoon in a coffeeshop named Ethikopia- alone. lol, actually solitude is real bliss (well sometimes). working on my never-ending thesis :))) but I'm happy ehe I'm turning 21 today! and fyi . . gue mules, abis minum kopi, lg nahan mules bgt ini lol . . . let's see what will happen today. I got many birthday wishes today and some of them just feel, so sincere, well actually most of it does, thank you kind-hearted people, may God bless you guys always! (gabakal baca juga mereka tp pgn doain aja haha) td pagi2 bgt juga ditelfon mama sama papa, today can't be better! walaupun semalem ada yg membuat bete yah :) but it's okay! every cloud has a silver lining💛 yg ini buruk rupa bgt sih...........

expecting kills, you're so drown in your own imagination that you don't realize you're run out of air.

gue kadang tiba-tiba sadar kalau I'm surrounded by such kind-hearted people, orang-orang baik yang suka bantu gue tanpa pamrih, kadang juga gue ngerasa I don't appreciate them enough. orang-orang yang ada di sekeliling gue adalah orang-orang yang tulus, tapi kadang keadaan yang bikin gue ga nyaman dikit langsung bikin gue lupa akan hal itu, why am I always seeking for my own comfort? ya mungkin itu emg human instinct, but why I feel so sinned by it? gue juga mau jadi orang yang selalu bisa bantu mereka, I'll be happy to do that, did I do that well enough? I'm blessed, beyond blessed even. but sometimes I forget that, I forget that Allah has given me with such great blessings, just because I don't feel as happy as I used to be. I wanna be more thankful, because my life is pretty much blessed, and sometimes I forget that fact.

I feel like I'm a bad person, but I don't wanna be a bad person I often take things for granted, but I don't wanna take things for granted I feel like an ungrateful human being, but I wanna be grateful I whine all the time, but I wanna cherish every moment of my life I wanna be a better me

they may not always respond my stories or my words with the things I'd like to hear, but I think they say the words I need to hear

I think this is the time everybody feels the loneliness, well maybe not everybody, but I'm surely included. but I think it's okay, I need to do what I really want to do, I need to feel relaxed, it's okay. It keeps me back on the ground, after all, it's still the same. Just slightly different way, that's why I sense something odd, but it's still the same. pokoknya mah bersyukur aja atas semua yg terjadi, Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Baik. :)

I stumbled, and then I grew, I failed, multiple times, I cried, hard, I got up, and then I grew, I've grown that I've known, life has never been easy, but it's always been beautiful.

korbankan, korbankan, jaga, perasaan mereka lebih penting dari kebahagiaanmu, aku juga ingin tertawa, tapi sedang merasa tak bisa, kapan ya aku kembali seperti sedia kala, yang semua hal bisa membuat bahagia, yang dipikirkan tidak ada apa-apa, kapan ya sepertinya aku sedang depresi, lebih menikmati saat sendiri, tapi aku harus kembali, karena aku bukanlah yang seperti ini kapan ya

hello! greeting from myself in 2017 wow, time sure flies doesnt it? i think i'm in depression state right now i'm not feeling myself lately i'm feeling overwhelming (in a bad way) with all of the people i know i know i shouldn't make this as a big issue, because it's not. but, i dont know. i think i'm just scared i'll be left with no one behind i want this term to end soon, i really hate this term. what's supposed to be a good thing, doesnt apply on me, it makes me feeling more confused and sad and lonely but bad times dont last right? kalau gue ngerasa sedih sampe lupa caranya ketawa dan balik lg jd ceria kayak biasanya dalam waktu yg lama, berarti gue bakal seneng dan bahagia jg dalam long period of time kan? itu kata bela sih, and it's nice to hear that. glad to know I have someone like her, someone I can always count on and someone to show all of my true colours to, someone who will always be there for me despite everything and...