21 September 2017

hello! greeting from myself in 2017

wow, time sure flies doesnt it?

i think i'm in depression state right now
i'm not feeling myself lately
i'm feeling overwhelming (in a bad way) with all of the people i know

i know i shouldn't make this as a big issue, because it's not.

but, i dont know. i think i'm just scared i'll be left with no one behind

i want this term to end soon, i really hate this term.
what's supposed to be a good thing, doesnt apply on me, it makes me feeling more confused and sad and lonely

but bad times dont last right?
kalau gue ngerasa sedih sampe lupa caranya ketawa dan balik lg jd ceria kayak biasanya dalam waktu yg lama, berarti gue bakal seneng dan bahagia jg dalam long period of time kan? itu kata bela sih, and it's nice to hear that.


glad to know I have someone like her, someone I can always count on and someone to show all of my true colours to, someone who will always be there for me despite everything and everything.


i think i just need a break, days off, from everybody, i'm tired, to feel in such a rush, to feel i need to do what i need to do, i'm tired, of crying because of thinking everything too much, i'm tired to have such a mind like mine, that thinks every little detail in such way, it's exhausting, to be me.