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so, there's this one thing that always moves me to tears, every time it happens, always, and it's been happening for years I guess? it's bottled up inside me but seems to easily move to surface every time it's triggered. :( gausah ada yg baca ini mendingan, karena emg gue nulis ini seakan gaada yg baca, jadi kalau lo ternyata kebetulan baca, I don't need your comment. I always feel like I'm the least loved child, and to be exact, by my father. that's what I always feel this whole time, doesn't mean he's mean to me or something, no, he's still kind. but I always have this feeling of him not trusting me like he does to my sister, or him not enjoying my company as he does to my brother, and I can see how he loves my sister and my brother so much, from his gestures, from his sayings, and everything, meanwhile you can see how I always try so hard to get his attention, to be the child he loves as much as he does to my siblings. that...