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I feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be, but at the same time I don't think I'm good at it. there are things I wanna explore, try, and do, but what's stopping me? none. I am stopping myself, just too lazy to make a movement, what a disappointment.

one thing I know for sure is I'm sure it's not the same anymore HEHEHEHEHE :)

as I’m getting older it’s harder for me to feel super comfy like I’m home with people, of course I can adjust, I think I’m good at that, but it’s just the feeling is not the same, you can seem like you’re having fun but actually longing for something, it’s possible, and only you can know that,  and how is it for you to find home at someone or something, only God knows how, is it just me or the is it just same with everyone? there’s still a faraway home not yet to be found

pernah nyangka ga sih lu bisa sampe di titik ini, fah? ngga kan? tp buktinya bisa-bisa aja tuh, nyampe-nyampe aja tuh ayo semangat dua tahun lagi untuk mencapai titik selanjutnya, you can do it 💜💛💗💙♡♡♡ keep in mind, there's nothing you can't do with Allah everything is possible.

my father is a very kind-hearted man, he really likes helping others, and makes it easier for anyone. he's selfless, never thinks about what's beneficial for him; always others, he's funny, he's religious, he still wears the same shirt my mother bought for him almost like 10 years ago, he likes eating satay, he enjoys playing gate ball, he doesn't think money is everything, he's not interested in luxury stuff, he works hard, he likes his coffee black, he has a small gap between his front teeth, I love him, but sometimes, I feel like it's so hard to get his attention, his affection, he's always so full of excitement around my sister or my brother, he's completely himself, but why is it a bit different with me? I know he doesn't mean it, but that's just what happens naturally, I think I just wanna be my daddy's little girl

you can be around something for soooo long but still so unsure about it, and also you can know something only for a while to know that you want it for a lifetime. it's funny, but that's how life works sometimes.