hang in there, self

here I go again...
feeling the same old thing I hate so much over again,
being in the surrounding you don't even feel comfortable with,
it's always a mystery to me, chemistry between people, I just don't wanna try forcing things I don't feel like having.

why is it I'm always separated with the people I wanna be with,
the people who give me real comfort, the ones I truly wanna share my thoughts with,
the older I get the more I realize, apparently it's such a luxury to be put with the ones you enjoy spending time with

but seeing them striving for what they wanna get in their own ways give me happiness, I'm relieved, that they are still there, going after what they dream of, those people still exist in my life. it's just they are somehow not a part of my days.

but I'm a strong believer that everything happens the way it's meant to be,
there's something for me to be put through all these things, all the struggling alone, all the patience I bear with, and everything, I must have something to learn, something that makes me grow

you get what you need
and Allah's timing and plans are always the best.